Sadistik - Savior Self

[Verse 1: Cas One]

This one's for the vices, the advice I never took

Those stairways I mistook for pages in my notebook

Those old cold looks that grab ahold of soul and shook

Hold my head up while I hold your hand and write my book

Oh look, that crooked little window got some blinds

I never pull em down though, they see straight inside

It's like we changed minds, still stand in the middle

Don't know how I keep it, I used to keep it always

Touch hands with ghosts and still walk through these hallways

Keep myself sane with the music on the long days

Seasons still change, I keep a piece of them always

Faces rearrange, they just memories in a crawlspace

They wanna walk the shoes but never learned to tie the lace

[Hook: Kristoff Krane]

Although beauty's all around me

It's so easy to feel like I'm still drowning

Hey, set sail for the shore now Dead nails

Bet we could learn another lesson if we exhale!

Although beauty's all around me

It's so easy to feel like I'm still drowning

Hey, set sail for the shore now Dead nails

Bet we could learn another lesson if we exhale!

[Verse 2: Sadistik]

They say the dead never speak, maybe I don't listen

To the sweet nothings in the crazy world I live in

I'm in a flush grey Seattle on Monday, as the sun rays chase the shadows up hills

With a child-like sentiment, catch me if you can it's a fight flight rhetoric

Dancing on command till the night's light's setting in

Fancy what you have, it's the zeitgeist yet again

In hindsight to find my cause of death I chased my dreams then I lost my breath - get it?

Am I clever with the words? Does it really really matter when you're entering a hearse?

Look, I'm alone in a coma from the methadone searching

For a saint that was frozen in a bed of snow

And then I'll excavate the set of bones, easy come, easy go,

Better late than never though

Here we go again, we can call it my defeat when my tongue

Is in my cheek for a solid ninety weeks

Swallow pride and grief, it was all I really had,

Just so I can understand that is all that I can be

And from a bird's-eye view, sixteen shots and I'll earn my dues

Sixteen shots and the world I knew is a resting plot for the kerbside blues

I see a city trapped in amber full of all the joy and the misery that's captured

Bright lights emitting in a pattern by the fireflies like a symphony of lanterns

[Hook: Kristoff Krane]

Although beauty's all around me

It's so easy to feel like I'm still drowning

Hey, set sail for the shore now Dead nails

Bet we could learn another lesson if we exhale!

Although beauty's all around me

It's so easy to feel like I'm still drowning

Hey, set sail for the shore now Dead nails

Bet we could learn another lesson if we exhale!

[Verse 3: Bodi]

Time to hit the road again, to get your soul again

To lay the bricks, pave it all and make some golden skin

A little alchemist bones made aluminum

Castle nine clouds, dreams found a way to ruin 'em

Back to the basics, laugh with a facelift

Trapped in the glass seek a crack that'll make it

Fade into black before the demons attack

And it'll all fall down just to build it back up

Back to the wall as you crawl through the dust

That's love, that's trust, that's what you gotta do

When the only one to prove it to is you

And you love it but you hate it and you made it on it on your own

And wouldn't trade it for a thing until you're home

Inhale, exhale, prevail

Beauty all around even when we fail

My holy grail is an empty cup

But enough to keep me going so drink drink it up

[Verse 4: Eyedea]

That changes the whole scene, back breaking and no brain

You call it a lack of sleep, I call it God's coke-

Caine sugar, I'm eye to eye with what you're looking for

Street smart, poison as a book worm

I took turns trying to heal

I look like I learned how to die when I fake a couple lies just to feel

You took a breath and give power to powder

Now life leaving your eyes looks like a fish pulled out the water

It might be in disguise as the highest I can try

Or your perfect lips, but don't lie to yourself if death ain't crawling towards

Fall apart, my windows are all walls and doors

It always seems simple when it's wearing the mask of small chore

I'll force me onto me again

From sea to shining sea I'll always drown in salt to keep my friends

Weekends end and morning sick leaves my skin

I've always been good with what was happening since I was kid

Can you dig? You get the same off every hit

But you keep the light till your hunger pains to feed your fix

[Hook: Kristoff Krane]

Although beauty's all around me

It's so easy to feel like I'm still drowning

Hey, set sail for the shore now Dead nails

Bet we could learn another lesson if we exhale!

Although beauty's all around me

It's so easy to feel like I'm still drowning

Hey, set sail for the shore now Dead nails

Bet we could learn another lesson if we exhale!

[Verse 5: Kristoff Krane]

Give me the thumbs up, or middle finger

On a scale from one to ten

I'm a good dad but better sister

It's so hard for you to get the clue

Knowing your dream catcher

Will never catch the pitch you threw

If you knew better you prepare for the worst

Either the worst gets the best of me

Or the rest of me gets better first

It's all the same capillaries closes down

Crushing veins, the blood could never make it out

Catch the fairy with the feather in your cap

You gon pay a pretty penny for that pleasure in your lap

The cat purrs with the promise that acts

Like an actor who was always better in the past

You got a chip on your shoulder, so it's cold

Could have jumped hot springs, but instead waited for winter snow...

So now we're all walking down the same road

In the same pair of shoes ready to get back home!

[Hook: Kristoff Krane]

Although beauty's all around me

It's so easy to feel like I'm still drowning

Hey, set sail for the shore now Dead nails

Bet we could learn another lesson if we exhale!

Although beauty's all around me

It's so easy to feel like I'm still drowning

Hey, set sail for the shore now Dead nails

Bet we could learn another lesson if we exhale!

• Artist:Sadistik
• Album:er Songs (2014)