The End lyrics

Here alone

Standing barefoot in our lawn

Worms squeezing their way through my toes

Tonight that's how it goes

I'm at your window kneeling quiet

I thought at least I'd maybe try to get your head right

Get your heart right

"Let him go!"

Then through the glass I see your dress fall to the floor

As he embraces every inch of you

The woman I adore

I can't believe the way you're bending

Can't believe this never-ending moaning

Asking him for more

Begging him for more

How far will I go to make it feel right?

"Come home"

I have to fix this on my own

Replace my heart

Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end

Replace my heart

I don't wanna live by coping

I'm done with hoping... end

I creeped in close enough to see

The way he touched her

From her feet across her knees

Inside her sweetest spot

He pleased and pleased her

I turned around and tried to take control

But no control was capable

It was a centerfold of how less than low can possibly go.

I squeezed the life into my brain

Like pushing knives into a vein

I've gotta get

I said I've gotta get inside

So to the back window I crawl in silent

Standing in the darkness

Of my living room

This used to be my home

How far will I go to make it feel right?

"Come home"

I have to fix this on my own

Replace my heart

Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end

Replace my heart

I don't wanna live by coping

I'm done with hoping... end

I turn the doorknob with two fingers

To be slow enough to sneak into the room

Among the corner darkness gloom

I had to see this happening

He pushed himself so deep inside her clapping rang

And bounced off every wooden walled room

And that's when all went silent blank except the color red

As I walked calmly numbing paralyzed beside the bed

I said "I know I'm not allowed to be here

I just had to see how good your new man really fucks you

'Cause you both been fucking me"

So now I planned the last thing you can both do as a pair

I tie both blindfolds tight around your fucking eyes to blind your stare

I don't want to alarm you, but I figured we could end this

In what seems easy, quick and painless, man

So I'll get down to business

I choose you first, there's a gun, its at your head

So laugh at me one more time but put your face inside the bed

You sit and watch me while I do this shit and learn from what I've said

I cocked the pistol, pulled the trigger, and all I saw was red

How far will I go to make it feel right?

"Come home"

I have to fix this on my own

Then the screaming

Oh the screaming

It's nice to see you scared

Of such a weak and stupid husband

Who knows you never really cared

I'll leave you with a question that I need to hear from your head:

Was all this worth it knowing you have just seconds left to live?

Now think about your answer, laying face down on the bed

I cocked the pistol, pulled the trigger and all I saw was red

I gently stroke her arm as she lies lifeless on her back

Then placed the barrel in my mouth

All I saw was black.

• Artist:Blue October
• Album:Approaching normal (2009)