Ma souffrance [English translation]

It was a saturday night

No troubles with my boyfriend

He told me : "Hey babe, come take a walk down the park"

No problem, I was down for it, we love each other

We help each other, heart each other, a healthy relationship

It had been three, four months and we were good,

We had nothing but whatever, we were good

So this said-evening, we're walking around

We will go far, I promise you

I think we even loved each other too much

After a while I see him frown

I soften

"What's happening babe, something's wrong ?"

I smelled a rat but I'm fucking stupid and I stayed

And he told me :

"You see, I'm starting to hate all of your friends.

-But babe, I do rap and love what I do, they're just pals"

My boyfriend gets pissed, hits cars and breaks doors

Far from knowing he'd lay a hand on me

Fuck, if I had known, tust me I'd be far away

I think we even loved each other too much

Fuck, if I had known, trust me I'd be far away (x2)

I was lost, panicked on the sidewalk, I wanted to go home;

no train. 1 am, it's too late.

He tells me :

"You stay with me, it's nothing, it will pass"

1 minute after I felt my ribs break

When you're hurt you keep it shut, you endure and endure

Your tears stream, your pouls is going lower and lower

He took me with him, he lied and told me :

"Shut the fuck up Mélanie, tell your mom you'll be home on Tuesday."

He hit me too strongly, too violently

Then he hit me with his elbow while holding his flywheel

I was hurt and kept it shut, I was scared and pained

Close my eyes, lower my head, that's all I did

Love is blind, but I saw it all

It was written but unfortunately I didn't read it all

I was hurt and kept it shut, he told me he would kill me

I was stuck I was scared but I think I was wrong

When you're hurt you keep it shut, you endure and endure

I was hurt and kept it shut and I was scared and I was pained

For six months I endured, I took hits and kept it shut

Promise to myself that next time I'd leave

It was always the same

I was too scared he would kill me, I was scared of being beaten up

He made me think nothing could stop him

Not the police, or my mother, or my hope

However, there is no superman, now I know it

There is no remedy to wipe off the wounds he left me

Finally I went home on Tuesday with blood on my face

And my mom called 911 to get my testimony

But you don't know how hard it is when men hit

I'm talking about severe injuries, no little scratches...

It's been four years but I don't forget

I go to sleep with it, I get up with it

It hurts

Understand that I can't give my heart anymore...

• Artist:Diam's